oh hey!

Wow, i'm really not much of a blogger. it was like pulling teeth.. but then again, i was never actually blogging about things I cared about. a lot has changed since I last posted an entry. Where do I begin?

in the beginning of march, i found my dream apartment on craigslist. after numerous emails and texts, i persuaded the guy to show me the apartment first. I loved it, and now it's mine! at the end of march, i went to Portland, Oregon. I took the amtrak there and back, something everyone should try once. I was only gone a week, but in that week, my whole outlook on my life at that moment changed.

When I got home, I moved in to the apartment. I was to start school that week, and after 2 classes, I had this gut wrenching feeling that I was not in the place I needed to be. I debated, posted on facebook for opinions, and after some thought and an email asking me to come in for an interview to be a flight attendant, i dropped out of school.

It wasn't the easiest decision to make because school was my safety net. It was the reason I didn't need to get a job. I could just go to school, get money for rent and do whatever I wanted. But the thought of being in the fashion industry made me cringe. It wasn't for me. In fact, I hated it with a passion! I don't even know how I let it go on for so long, but as they say- things happen for a reason.

Oh, about that interview - I got the job. (or more like, invitation to go through the training in St Louis, because, as I would learn, you didn't actually have the job until you graduate from the program.) I left for STL on May 8th, and wouldn't you know it - I'm still here.

We are on the home stretch of training - we have a larger class (19 people -- we started with 31) so it takes longer to get everyone through each part of the program. I laugh when I remember when they told us "it'll be about 4-6 weeks of training) -- it's been 5 weeks to the date, and we're not even scheduled to graduate until, at the earliest, the 24th (which may be pushed back because we haven't even been called in to go to class yet today). You know, some people here complain - they want to get out of this hotel and start flying. But if there's one thing i know about this industry, it's that you have to take it as it comes to you. A schedule for me is almost nonexistent until the end of summer. I will never know when I have to fly or how long I'll be gone until I get my itinerary. So if they tell me they don't know when we'll graduate, it's not a big deal to me. What's the rush? I'd rather be 100% confident in my knowledge before I start flying than rush through this and make mistakes while I'm working.

So that's what happened. Would I say I'm a lot happier than I was a few months ago? Oh HEALL yes. but ask me that when I start working, because my answer will probably be 10x more enthusiastic.